its been hard to get a job especially with the economy being bad since , ...well since its been bad..i think its been almost 5 yrs or less...but dam....where did they go ?

My room mate and I going downtown in a cab yesterday. I dont go into cars that often so when im in a car..i get excited. lol

Black swan

I just finished watching the movie and I dont understand why everyone and they momma is on this movies dick. the movie was ok. i say wait for the dvd or either watch it online and save a few bucks. honestly i feel like the movie got more popularity viewers just cuz word got around about the eating out lesbian scene.

There are certain things i do like about this film and they are

1. i like how you see her become more and more intense and less fragile. 

2. i like the shaky camera work on certain scenes, makes it seem real and you feel for her.

3. how they show that in order to get somewhere you have to do whatever it takes, including sleeping with whoevers going to help you get there. thats the industry for ya. for the most part.

the movie was coo...1-10 i give it a 6

My nightmare on virgin america

i carry my luggage and load it into the exterra, since that morning i woke up with a headache and i was like ..fuck! my head hurts...i couldnt find any tylenol or medicine of some kind around the house either. I get in the truck and we drive off to my moms beauty salon to say goodbye. 

Once there i complain about my headache and my mom says " oh ,i have some tylenol here in my purse" i was like ok cool,let me have some. she opens the bottle and hands me two pieces. i get some water and down my throat they go. "here take the bottle" says my mom "i can just go buy another one". i take the bottle and read the label realizing its tylenol PM! ..i was like MOM! this is tylenol pm, im gonna be sleepy on the plane. ( i planned to edit some photos on the plane, so me being sleepy is no bueno). so i say goodbye to my mom, my sister and my brother.

we got to the airport and i say goodbye to my sister and her bf. i got teary eyed so i had to walk away. ....so finally i get through everything..checked bags and all that jazz...i get onto the plane ,find my seat # and sat down. the plane took off and in the sky we were. about an hour into the flight i start getting sleepy..so im doing all kinds of moves to find a comfortable position for me to sleep. as the plane reached our destination it was time to land. suddenly the tires on the plane broke off and we began sliding on the concrete stretch way...as the plane was sliding i saw my dad on he plane a couple seats further from me. I get out of my seat and started yelling for my dad! people were screaming and yelling. the plane began to turn itself sideways and i could see that we were headed towards the water. i get to where my dad was sitting at and i wrap my arms around him and close my eyes. suddenly i felt the plane in midair for a couple of seconds as it launched off into the water. 

i felt the water burst inside the plane and quickly everyone was underwater. i swim up and find a small space of air and i see my friend yadira crying. i hug her and start crying asking her . omg yadira is this is it?.

thats when i wake up. i woke up startled and breathing heavily. i was like ..fuck, that felt so fuckin real.

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MOTIVATION

Im never quitting, doesn't matter how hard it gets...doesn't matter if i have to get a part time job. I feel it within me that im going to make it, become successful, be respected through my photography. become a role model to someone. 

Im back home for the holidays and i've missed my family so much that i dont even want to go out cuz i feel like if im not home i won't get to enjoy my parents. i have two more weeks here with them. fuck! time flies man....sometimes it sucks how fast it goes by.

I want to see my name in lights! to have a gallery opening of my work in NYC. shoot for magazines. and also be able to make enough money so that my dad doesnt have to work anymore, to take care of my  parents when they get old. to not have to worry about shit...if i see a shirt i like..i wanna be able to fuckin buy it and not feel guilty about spending money....i want to do a lot of things in my life.

but first things first....wiggle your big toe

Money

sigh...without it you can't do shit..lol.